So I tallied up my hours on the mechanical work for the printshop and billed them and all I can say is — yAy! If I can keep this up for even half a year I will pay off half of my back taxes and cut my remaining penalties and late fees in half. I think I could handle it from there. Man, it is a lot of running around that I don't all get paid for though. I bill hours and minutes to each project individually but I under estimated overall administrative time, the upload/download of files and the cost of gas between offices. Well, live and learn — it is still a big help and alright money as it is though. Good to have a little filler too.
I wrote out the invoice and got kind of happy thinking about being able to send off a big chunk to Uncle Sam and get him off my back when I file taxes later next month. Although I am still irritated that they are being such demanding tight asses for such a small time nickel & dime person like me — I mean I know collectively we add up and I don't have a problem paying taxes but seriously this is nothing compared to other businesses and certainly not any amount of money that would ever make someone go Republican. The little nail salon down the street makes more money in a year then I do but who knows if they are even legal? I have this other friend who is struggling with his business and most of his projects bill for nearly a quarter of my income (when he can get them) but he hasn't filed his personal taxes in like 3 years. The other day I was talking to this guy who was in a law suit with some dude that hasn't paid income taxes for 5 years and owes a hundred thousand more then me. So what gives?
Then, for just a moment I got a pang of resentment thinking about the way my financial advisor talked to me the last time I saw him. When I think about it I still feel like firing him. I know it's emotional and it's not completely reasonable but ya know, I don't care! It just stuck in my side being lectured like I am a 5 year old by someone i am paying for advice — I know I didn't properly plan out my quarterly payments 4 years ago when I started freelancing and didn't know anything, but I don't need a smack on the back of the head for another 2 years while I AM trying to catch-up and fix that mistake. Just irritating and presumptuous from someone several years younger and in the business of minding money, I mean that is what I hired him for! — help. So shut up and help me — don't patronize me with your opinions about how hard I am or am not working and tell me I need a second job at a coffee shop on weekends for a couple of nickels and dimes. When one extra professional client would present me with a greater potential for earning that money and still be in my profession.
I feel like showing him that invoice to illustrate my point but I feel like taking my money elsewhere just a little more just because of the icky taste in my mouth. I mean it must seem petty but really, I have no one around telling me I am doing a good job, I have no one telling me when I did something right or pointing out encouraging things in my favor so yes as unreasonable as it seems I do need someone to take 2 minutes to think about how to word things proactively when they talk to me about MY money. I mean tearing myself down is MY job and it's not like I slack off at that. He said that aside from the taxes I was actually doing well, but he only said that once and when back to piling on the repetitive lecture about the other stuff until I crawled out of there with a migraine feeling like crap and that I had ruined my life going into business for myself. Ugh, there is nothing like repetition that just kills me.
